Its you who is to blame...

You give up chicken because the person who means the most to you is a vegetarian and gets nausea even at the mention of it.

You sever all ties with a friend who you know can be much more than a friend and will always be the object of your felicity any time you demand, because you acknowledge your soulmate's insecurity and value the immense ardour he or she may have for you. (re-read this sentence , its complicated).

You abstain from using the F-word and the G-word ( and many other such words) because he doesn't like you to, even though he using it is fine. (This case is especially militating against a 'he'.)

You think nothing is going to change and you expect the same sacrifice in return. Eventually you start taking your , lets say 'special someones' for granted. How are they supposed to retaliate? Well experience says that once this so called 'taking for granted' stage is achieved it is irreversible. It can be checked only when YOU realise it in good time. If it is too late , the only one you can blame is yourself. Repent in closed doors, hide the tear in your eye when you are in the car with your mom or sister and looking out of the rainwater tainted glass, whatever you do , take everything in a positive note. Begin life on a new note. You are mature now, give things time. Everything happens in good time ; we don't need to keep a vigilance on that. All you can do is accept everything beautifully , because you are given only as much as you can handle. :)

The most important message: Expectation should never be your aim , amelioration of your soul and acceptance of Fate should. :)

My GREy days...

Its nearing 1.30 and I am about to sleep with my GRE audio tracks plugged into my ears! Life has become a bit too difficult for me . I am eating GRE , sleeping GRE , dreaming GRE and Doctor Raju!! ( Dr. Raju is a prof who has published lots of helplines on this hideous exam). With my Exams two weeks away , I really don't have it quite figured out what to worry about. Whether to fret over the deferment of my passport delivery ( yes u heard it right. My Gre is two weeks later and I still haven't received my passport!. ) or the Exam itself. I discovered so many things , the most momentous being , I suck at comprehension!Thats what my mock test scores say.. That's all I can write now. I'm too sleepy to elucidate this gruelling experience. My question is : Why do these stupid people want to know whether I understand honors level English and (simultaneously) whether I can do 2nd grade addition and multiplication when I am majoring in Electronics!!!!?? Snore snore snore....

Learning for Its own sake...

I don't understand why we should learn just because we need to. Isn't it a lot like smiling at your neighbour everyday just because she stays next door and is your only resort when you run short of sugar for a midnight coffee? The ancient Greeks never navigated with mathematics because they NEEDED to have their descendants of the next millennium find the solutions to a deluge of complex quagmires. Franklin never went out in the middle of the storm with the intention to run your fans and lights five centuries later. Learning is a process which comes naturally to man. It is the 'water' to a thirst called curiosity. Learning amongst human beings happens because every human soul is a bit too recalcitrant to resign himself to uncertainty. It is just a matter of chance that, what one fiercely inquisitive dreamer has helped the world learn goes on to solve the greatest of practical problems in the present era of complications. So , lethargy and indolence amongst a scattered few can never abrogate the practice of 'learning just for the sake of it'. When you have visions of uncertainty go and slake it. Don't wait for your need to arise!